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Vision: what is, what was and what could be.

Their Time

I never know what I’m going to write when I plant my butt in the chair. I have hundreds and maybe thousands of thoughts and ideas that could be developed into a blog post. I just came back from my morning walk and had so many thoughts rolling around in my head, that I didn’t want to take the time to cook breakfast. I made my coffee and grabbed a granola bar. I was that excited to write.

The only issue is, “Which idea gets written down first?”

I don’t spend much time thinking about that. As soon as my fingers touch the keys they start moving. I usually have a single sentence in mind when I start and it is seldom more than a vague idea. Many times where I think the post is going is not where it ends up. Writing that first version, inspires a second better version and I change the whole thing in favor of that new direction.

What inspired my blog today was all those thoughts. Those that I want to capture and convey to you, but there are so many, I never could. Even if I took only the thoughts I have today and never have another, I would not be able to write a blog for all of them. There are just too many.

I walked for an hour today with those thoughts, wandering really. Just looking for the next picture. The next place I haven’t seen or a new view of something I have seen. I spent this time with lots and lots of thoughts. Some of them are down right awe inspiring and pop into my head almost fully formed. Others need some development. I try to hold on to the good ones, to remember them later and it bothers me when I can’t. Then one of those thoughts put things in perspective.

It’s not their time.

I mulled that over. I could write about this thought or that, but I won’t and the reason I won’t is because it isn’t time. Not yet. I might never write about it, but I had the thought and I let it go. I released it like a balloon into the Collective Unconscious. I might get it back later, but I doubt it. I suspect it belongs to another. Someone who can release it when and where it needs to be and in a way that people will get.

Everything comes into existence exactly when it should. When I write a sentence and put it out into the world, it is because it is time. Time for someone, somewhere to read it. Time for that message to reach that person in that second when they are most open to it.

I have known for a while that I am a messenger. Someone put on this little lump of wet rock to give people a new perspective. To open their eyes.

If you are reading my blog, it’s because it’s time. Time for you to get a different perspective. Time for me to change your view of the world.

Maybe later, it will be time for you to change someone else’s view.

Constructive Discontent

I have been experiencing what I will call “constructive discontent.” This is discontent that motivates me to change something instead of just biting random people. This discontent has motivated me to go to the library and checked out multiple self help books. One of those books is called Prosper: Create the Life You Really Want and another is called Get Out of Your Own Way: 5 Keys to Surpassing Everyone’s Expectations.

The first book, Prosper, talks a great deal about your Polaris Point. By Polaris Point, they mean the desires deep inside you that should be guiding every decision you make to get you where you want to be in life. This is your deepest internalized desire. What you really want out of life. The bad thing…most people can not verbalize it because they have never thought about it.

The authors, Ethan Willis and Randy Garn, define prosperity as:

I want prosperity. I think everyone wants prosperity once they figure out they don’t have it. So, I tried to figure out my Polaris Point using the guides in the book, but something just wasn’t right. I did a lot of thinking, but nothing clicked.

I switched to Get Out Of Your Own Way. I liked the title of the book because I have been aware for years that I am the only thing holding me back. I blame money or more specifically, the lack of money, but it’s me. All me. I am consistently making decisions that keep me where I am. Broke and discontent.

The author of Get Out of Your Own Way, Robert K. Cooper, Ph.D., talks about how the human brain is wired and he does it in a way that makes sense to me. Human society has changed dramatically in the past one hundred years, but we are working with the brain that developed back when Ug and Grunt were walking the Earth. Ug and Grunt’s need for survival in a rough and dangerous world wired the human brain in a way that made us very aware of the potential negative outcomes in any situation.

Fortunately for Ug and Grunt, this worked for them. They survived and because they survived, we exist. Unfortunately for us, the brain wiring that worked so well for them has become our biggest liability in the new world we created.

We as a society, and as individuals, focus on the potential worst case scenario and completely miss the potential best case scenario in any situation. This sets us up for failure, discontent, and random biting.

I have been just as guilty of doing this as anyone else. The failure and discontent, not the biting.

The problem is, as with any problem, you have to know you have a problem. You have to know you are letting the worst case scenario rule your world. Cooper talks about what triggers our worst case scenario responses. He also tells us what needs to be done to reprogram the brain to override the system Ug and Grunt created.

The observations clicked with me. I became aware of the way my brain is holding me back. I finally saw the problem in a way that also allowed me to fix it.

We, as poorly wired humans, get so tied up with the short term and solving the little problems of today, that we never give a thought to where we want to be tomorrow. Cooper calls this the “shoe top” perspective. Looking down at the top of your feet will tell you where to place your next step, but if you never look up to figure out where you are and where you are going, you are just moving.

Movement for movement’s sake is pointless. It accomplishes nothing, but we are still exhausted at the end of the day. Modern society has brainwashed us into believing we have to work to exhaustion. We might even take pride in the fact that we are tired. After all, being exhausted means we accomplished something. Or did we?

Did we actually accomplish something lasting or did we just get through the day? Think about your yesterday or even your whole last week. What did you do toward making your next year better?

For most people, the answer is nothing.

Leave a comment below and let me know if you have or are experiencing constructive discontent.

The Brain Damaged Goldfish

Years ago, when I was working a ‘real’ job, the movie Finding Nemo came out. I hadn’t seen it, but one of my coworkers told me I reminded her of Dory. When I finally saw the movie, I had to laugh. I could totally relate to… oh, look a butterfly.

Huh? Oh, sorry. What I was saying is, I have the attention span of a brain damaged goldfish. Want evidence to support that claim? Very well, here it is.

It takes me two hours to make and eat breakfast.

It goes something like this:

08:21:23 Turn on the computer. Get coffee beans from the cupboard.
08:22:04 Grind coffee beans and put them in the coffee machine. Add water and turn it on.
08:24:19 Turn on the computer to get music started, too quiet otherwise.
08:26:41 Get sidetracked reading forum posts.
08:57:31 Do some work.
09:05:12 Realize, I haven’t had my coffee. Grab my cup, but notice it’s dirty.
09:05:17 Look for a clean cup, but I only have two and the other one is dirty, too.
09:08:41 Figure out which one is less dirty. Follow the the Disgusting Dirty Dish Guidelines, to determine if it is too dirty to use with out washing. It isn’t. Use least dirty cup.
09:08:52 Sit down at the computer and read e-mail.
09:12:17 Remember I was getting coffee. Get sugar and add to dirty cup. Pour in coffee and milk.
09:13:01 Added to much milk now the coffee is cold.
09:13:53 Put coffee in the microwave and start it.
09:14:14 Do more work on the computer.
09:21:33 Realize I still don’t have my coffee. Look around, wondering what I did with it.
09:23:19 Found the coffee in the microwave. The coffee is cold, reheat.
09:23:46 Work on computer and listen for microwave ding. Get coffee and take first sip. Burn lip and tongue. Put coffee near the computer and start breakfast.
09:25:08 Find a frying pan.
09:25:30 Determine if frying pan exceeds the Disgusting Dirty Dish Guidelines. If it does, wash it. If it doesn’t, put it on the burner and pour in pre-cut onions and peppers. Light burner and go back to computer.
09:31:36 Notice the sizzling from the pan and stir.
09:31:59 Go back to computer.
09:36:15 Notice sizzling again. Add frozen hashbrowns to pan and stir.
09:38:48 Go back to computer.
09:46:48 Remember food in the pan, stir and look for dish to eat it in.
09:48:41 All the dishes are dirty, start looking for least dirty according the the Disgusting Dirty Dish Guidelines.
09:50:08 Find least dirty dish, but it’s disgusting. Wash the dish.
10:02:12 Stir peppers, onions, and hashbrowns. Add eggs and stir the mess together.
10:03:52 Work on computer.
10:06:54 Stir food. Put the food in the newly washed dish and sit down at computer.
10:09:46 Sip coffee, coffee is empty. Wonder when I drank it.
10:10:03 Make more coffee. Sit at computer and take two bites of breakfast.
10:13:16 Remember I wanted to make tea. Get up and find pan to boil water. It’s clean.
10:13:47 Wonder how that happened.
10:13:53 Fill the pan with water and set it on the stove to heat.
10:15:02 Go back to breakfast. My food is cold, so I put it in the microwave.
10:15:52 Work on the computer.
10:19:19 Water is simmering and reminds me to make the tea.
10:22:23 Remember the food in microwave. It’s still warm.
10:22:56 Eat breakfast while reading a funny story on computer.

You might laugh, but this is really how some of my mornings go.

Check back next week when I post the Disgusting Dirty Dish Guidelines.